Birthdays With Marie

Title: Birthdays With Marie
Author: Terri
E-mail: xgrrl26@yahoo.com
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own any of them except Sam and
Nat, and they're mine for the duration :)
Archive: WRFA, Dolphin Haven, Peep Hut  anyone else,
please ask and I'll happily provide :)
Feedback: Please? With a big piece of
frosting-encrusted birthday cake on top? Good, bad,
and ugly welcome.
Summary: Sequel to Getting Presents With Marie. The
twins' second birthday is met with more than a little
trepidation and there are a few birthday surprises in
the cards for the Laughlins.
Comments: I started writing this for the DDFH's
Birthday/Anniversary theme week and was spurred on by
Peggy's bunny about the twins switching presents (she
envisioned a leather jacket and a tutu, but Logan and
Marie got them slightly different ones). I also need
a foofy interlude while I'm working on the next
Yellowstone, which is taking *forever* darn it!

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Dada?"

"Yeah?"

"I don't want cake. I don't wanna party." Oh, man.
This again. I get it, I really, really get why he
associates birthday parties and cake with bad stuff,
but both me and Marie have tried real hard to explain
to him that the Brotherhood ain't gonna be crashin' no
parties no more.

"I know, Sam, but you gotta trust me. Everythin's
gonna be OK this time. Me and your mom are gonna make
sure that your second birthday party is better than
your first." Look at him - rubbin' his chest where
the scar is with this big frown on his face. That
just breaks your heart. "Everythin'll be OK. OK?
Trust your dad here."

"OK Dada." He still ain't sure, I can tell. Hmph.
Dunno what else to try to convince him. Me and Marie
have tried explainin' it just 'bout every which way,
but I guess he's just gonna hafta go through havin'
the birthday and the party and the cake and seein'
that nothin' bad is gonna happen this time around. "I
go pway wif Blue."

"Woof!"

"OK, but be careful if you're stayin' in the house."
Actually, his sister's the one who needs that warnin'.
She broke a lamp playin' with that dog already. At
least she's playin' quiet now - paintin' or somethin'.
I'd bet she's already got half the paint in her hair.
My little artist.

"Hey, Logan - can you give me a hand?" Whew. Marie's
back. I always feel a little double-teamed when she
leaves me alone with both of 'em. "I think this is
all of it - can you grab a bag or two?" She did the
birthday grocery thing herself this time. We decided
not to have a big party, not to invite any strangers,
to have it be just us and a little party. Thought
that'd probably be easiest on the kids. After this
year, we can go back to parties with people and
whatnot, but they need to at least get one birthday
behind 'em without too much commotion. Besides, it's
the big number two and I'm kinda lookin' forward to it
bein' just us. I'm not a big 'let's invite everyone
we know over' kinda guy. Although it did come in
handy last time. "I'm going to make a cake this time.
I got all the stuff. I think we're ready. Are the
kids playing?"

"Yeah, Nat's paintin' or somethin' and Sam's playin'
with the dog in his room. He said he didn't wanna
have a party again."

"Oh no. I was really hoping our talks helped."

"I think he's just gonna hafta go through and see for
himself that it's OK. Probably gets that from his old
man." I like teasin' her. I especially like teasin'
her when I can smell that she's been thinkin' 'bout
me, been wantin' me. Which is most of the time. Heh.

"Gee, you think?" I like it even better when she
teases back. "I got them the, uh  p-r-e-s-e-n-t-s we
talked about."

"Ah, good." A nice set of paints for 'em both  God
knows Scooter started somethin' with that paintin' kit
he gave 'em, especially with Nat  and a doll for Nat
and a big-ass dump truck for Sam. We didn't wanna go
overboard on the toys 'cause  well, for one, 'cause
the budget is tighter since we got an additional
canine mouth to feed  but mostly 'cause we don't
wanna spoil 'em. We wanna teach 'em that, hey
whatcha really need is your family, a little food,
warm place to live, and that's about it. If they got
the basics, they're doin' OK and everythin' else is
just icin' on the cake. Besides, they got lotsa toys
a chest fulla toys for each of 'em. This is just to
say, you know, happy birthday, and so I can get to
play dump trucks with my son. That's gonna be pretty
cool. We'll make manly noises and scoot the truck all
over the house. We'll put things in it then dump 'em
out. I dunno if it's 'cause I don't remember havin'
toys or probably never had none or what, but I'm
really lookin' forward to playin' with him.

"And I even got the d-o-l-l on sale."

"Good deal, darlin'." My Marie, she's a helluva
shopper. "We're pretty set, then?"

"Just have to bake the cake, and we're good to go for
tomorrow. We can take the rest of the night off."
And judgin' by the way she's sayin' that she's got a
little more than cake bakin' planned for me tonight.
Oh yeah, darlin', I'm juts gonna wink atcha so you
know I'm on to you. Makes you blush, every time, and
you know what that does to me. "I did say we have to
bake the cake first, Logan."

"Right. Need any help there?" You know I love my
wife if I'm volunteerin' for bakin' duty.






"Dada! Dada!!" Shit. Shit, that's Sam. He never
hollers for us at night. Somethin's wrong.

"Mph." Woke Marie too. I don't smell anyone in the
house or any animals or anythin'. Can't be that. I
don't hear nothin' movin'. "Logan, is that  "

"DAAAAADAAAAA!!!!!" Christ! Gotta go get him. Now.

"Sam? Sam, I'm here." Shit, somethin' is wrong.
He's sittin' straight up in bed, screamin' and cryin'
up a storm. Poor Nat  she's just sittin' up in her
bed, all freaked out. She don't know what's wrong
either.

"Daaaaadaaaaaa." That's heartbreakin', right there,
those little arms reachin' out to me and that pitiful
voice. "Dada, pwease"

"I gotcha, I gotcha." And Marie's goin' over to hold
Nat. We got 'em covered. But what the hell is wrong?
He's never had a nightmare or anythin' like this.
Shit, he never even usedta cry that much as a baby
when he'd wake up hungry. "What's wrong, what
happened?"

"Dada.." Just hangin' onta me for dear life. Nat
and Marie don't look like they have any more of a
clue. "Dada, I don't wanna have a birfday. I don't
wanna, pwease!" Oh Jesus. "Don't make me!" Whoa
he never gets demandin' like that. Never.

"Sam, sugar, it's OK, everything's OK. Nothing's
going to happen tomorrow, I promise." Whew. Good,
come over here, darlin' and gimme some backup. Sam
usually likes to be held by her better anyhow. Maybe
she can 

"NO! No, mama!! Want dada!" Oh my God. Oh my God,
he's afraid of her. He's afraid. He's scramblin'
back against the headboard to get away from Marie.
Sweet Christ, that's gonna break her heart, I just
know it.

"Sam." I don't mean to get harsh with him, but I knew
that tone would get his attention. "You don't have
anythin' to be afraid of. You listen to your mom and
me. Everythin's gonna be fine tomorrow. Now, you say
you're sorry to your mom."

"No, Logan, it's OK. Just let him  let him do what
he needs to. I understand why he's scared." She's
already cryin' and I can just see it breakin' her up.
Dammit. Dammit. "It's OK, Sam, I'll  I'll go back
over on Nat's bed, OK? I'll stay over here."

"Wot happenin' mom?" And Nat  she's just confused as
all hell. It ain't in her to get all upset when
somethin' like this happens, but I'm sure she's
feelin' all unsettled.

"Sam's a little afraid, honey, that's all. He
remembers last year and he's afraid it'll happen
again."

"When you got mad at us and went 'grrrr'?" You know,
no matter how much you explain shit, it just don't
stick with toddlers, they're too young. I shoulda
known this would come back and bite us on the ass.
Fuckin' Sabretooth. Fuckin' Brotherhood.

"I wasn't mad at you, Nat, I'm never mad at you."
Marie's losin' it now, she's not gonna be able to hold
back the tears anymore. "I just  I  "

"We explained this to ya when it happened." Can't get
mad at 'em for not really understandin', can't get
upset that they're still scared and that all the
reassurances we've been givin' ain't sinkin' in. That
ain't their fault. "Remember how I explained 'bout
your mom's skin and how she got that guy in her head
for just a second? Remember how we both toldya that
even though it looked scary your mom would never,
ever, ever, hurt ya? You don't hafta worry 'bout
that, not at all."

"But wot if it happens again?"

"It's not gonna. You have your dad's word on that,
Nat."

"But wot if you dunno if the growly mean people are
coming, like they did last time?"

"It's our birfday, dada." Now my heart's breakin'. I
don't think I've ever heard four sorrier, sadder words
in my whole life. Sam says 'em like it's some kinda
death sentence.

"Yeah, it is your birthday. And that's a happy day.
I know the first one went bad, but I swear to ya, all
the rest of 'em will be good, I promise. How your
first birthday went  that's not how all birthdays go,
got it? Tomorrow's gonna be just fine. You don't
hafta worry." That didn't convince him, not one bit.
Shit, we're never gonna be able to get him through the
day tomorrow, never. I knew he was worried, but I
didn't see all this comin'. He's gonna freak out if
we even try to give him cake and presents. Dammit.
That's probably the first damn thing they really
remember, and it's a bad memory. They don't deserve
that.

"We fight good, Sam. Don't worry." Nat, tryin' to
buck up her little brother. "If the growly mean
people come, we fight and we  "

"No, darlin', you don't fight. You let me and mom do
the fightin' if somethin' ever happens. Nat, you two
are too little, I toldya that. You gotta let us take
care of things." My little artist and my little
ass-kicker. Gotta curb that until she really can take
care of herself.

"But mama change. Mama growl. Mama feel bad."

"I know it was scary, honey, but it was just for a
second and now I'm just fine. I've been just fine for
a long time, for almost a year now." God help her,
she's tryin' to pull it together a little, tryin' to
give Sam what he needs here.

"I dunno."

"I do know, Sam. Mom's not gonna change, nobody's
gonna crash the party, and we're all just gonna have a
fun birthday together tomorrow. That's what's gonna
happen. I promise." I really dunno what else to say
here. I mean, I've tried every damn thing I can think
of to make him go easier about all this. I'm outta
ideas.

"Sam, when your dad promises, that's the way things
are." Look at her, tryin' so hard to make him feel
better. "Tomorrow, you just stick real close to your
dad, and trust his promise, and you'll see, it will
all work out OK." It's gotta be rippin' her to shreds
to say that, to tell him not to stick with her.

"Mama.." I think he's startin' to register that he
hurt her by backin' away, by bein' scared. Him
gettin' upset 'bout that is only bound to upset both
him and Marie even more. Fuck. Do other parents
hafta deal with this shit? You can tell he wantsta go
to her, but he's still a little scared.

"It's OK, Sam, it's OK. If you want to come over,
it's OK and if you need to stay over there, that's OK
too." And he's gonna stay on his bed. He's not gonna
go to Marie. Fuck. "Come on, let's  let's try to
get a little more sleep before morning, OK? If you
need anything or get scared, just call us."

"OK. Night, mom!" Nat, bouncin' right back, like
usual. Hell, she's probably gonna be dreamin' of
gougin' out somebody's eye with her little paintbrush.
It's just how she deals with it  she thinks 'bout
how she can fight, how she can kick ass in the
situation. She got that from me, definitely. I just
wish her brother had a little of it. Wish he wasn't
so scared. I'd know how to deal with it if he was
more like Nat.

"'Night, mama." Now he's scared 'bout tomorrow and
he's scared that he upset his mom. Well, he did. But
I know it ain't his fault. Still fuckin' frustratin',
though.

"Good night. I love you both very much." Marie, in a
soft little whisper. Lotsa tears comin' out there.
God, what a mess.

"Good night. Get some sleep. Love ya." I just wish
I could make everythin' all better for ya, Sam. I
wish I could turn back time and hunt down all those
fuckers before they ever knocked on our door. But I
can't. I can't fix it for my son, for my family.
It's gonna be a long night. And an even longer day
tomorrow.







"You wanna cry some more?" I don't think all the
tears are out yet, but she's tried to calm down and
say somethin' three times now. I know she wantsta
talk it all over, but I know my wife, and I know she's
gotta cry it out first. "You just take your time,
darlin'. We got plenty of time before mornin'."

"I  I  "

"Take it slow. I gotcha."

"Oh, Logan.." Lots more tears. Knew they were in
there. Go on, cry it out. "I  I have to t-tell you
something."

"Uh, OK."

"I'm not first anymore." What? She totally lost me
on that one. Did I hear that right? "I can't be, not
anymore."

"Darlin', what're you talkin' 'bout?"

"Remember when I was pregnant and you said I was most
important because we can always make more babies, but
we can't make another me and how I came first? Well,
I can't come first anymore." I'm still not quite
followin', 'cause if there's one thing that ain't
changin' in my life, it's Marie bein' most important.
"When you  when you got that tone with Sam and said
for him to apologize, you can't  I know it was
because you knew it upset me but you can't  you can't
worry about me being upset anymore, or at least not
first, not over our kids. You have to put them first,
even when they might  they might do something to hurt
me, because they're just kids and we're the grown ups
and they're scared and we gave them such an awful
first birthday and I don't blame them and I  "

"Shhh. Hey. Easy. Take it easy." Gettin' so worked
up, I'm a little worried she might hyperventilate
here. She's just gettin' more and more hyper as she
goes along. "Baby, take it easy. I love the kids, you
know how much I do. I love 'em like hell. But I hate
seein' you hurtin'."

"I know, Logan, but  "

"Shhh. Darlin', lemme finish. I know what you're
sayin' 'bout them havin' to be first, and in some
ways, yeah, I get that. Especially now, when they're
little  you're right, I snapped at Sam when I
shouldnta, when I shoulda put him first. But darlin',
there's some things you go first in and I dunno really
how to explain it, but that's just how it is. If  if
this here woulda happened, if Sam woulda done
somethin' to hurt you when he was older and he shoulda
damn well known better, or if he did somethin' on
purpose, well then he'd be in for an ass-kickin' from
me. I ain't gonna raise kids who don't respect their
mom. But I understand this  he's scared and he's too
young to think 'bout it logically, rationally. The
scared part of him took over and he hurt ya without
meanin' to. I get that. I just dunno how to fix it
for him, how to make it all better. Darlin', you're
the expert at that outta us two."

"I don't know how to fix it either. I know I should.
I know that." Shit, she took that comment the wrong
way.

"I didn't mean it as a complaint, darlin', not at all.
I'm just sayin'  you're real good at that and I'm
outta my depth here. I dunno what we're gonna do with
'em tomorrow."

"I don't know either. Oh God, Logan, this is all
this all came down on us because of me, because I
attracted the Brotherhood and  "

"Uh-uh. No. Don't even think that way. Our kids are
hurtin' 'cause of a buncha dumb-ass, mean as hell,
worthless bastards who thought attackin' babies was a
good idea. No way is this on you, no way. Stop
thinkin' that right now."

"O-OK. I just  I wish things were different." Me
too, darlin', me too. But I guess we gotta play the
hand we're holdin' now.

"We'll figure somethin' out in the mornin'. Get some
sleep, OK?" She might be able to sleep a little if I
hold her and rub her back. No sleep for me, though.
Nope, I gotta think of a way to get the family through
tomorrow. I'm the man, and I'm gonna handle it. I
ain't gonna put it on Marie, not now, not knowin' how
upset she is. I'm the man, and I'll figure somethin'
out. I gotta.






Executive decision number one  everybody sleeps in.
It's gonna be an emotional enough day without havin'
to deal with big and little people short on sleep. I
slept in until ten and I still got up first. It's
eleven now and I can hear Nat movin' around in there.
She and Sam'll be up and out here soon enough. Well,
good. Might as well get this show on the road.

I did a lotta thinkin' last night and I came up with a
coupla things. Number one  everybody sleeps in.
Number two  we're gonna have a good day today, even
if it kills us all. It's the kids' second birthday,
dammit, and we should all get to enjoy that day,
especially them. Number three  better sooner than
later. I know they're scared 'bout the whole day, but
they're especially scared of gettin' cake and
presents, 'cause that's when the Brotherhood barged in
last year. That'll be the worst part  seein' the
cake and the presents and goin' through all that. So
guess what we're havin' for breakfast? That's right,
cake. Better sooner than later and once they see that
eatin' cake and openin' birthday presents ain't gonna
necessarily result in an attack then maybe there's a
chance of them enjoyin' the rest of the day a little.
That's my theory anyhow. Well, it's either gonna work
that way, or make the whole damn day a thousand times
worse. We'll see which one we're gonna be dealin'
with here.

"Hi dad." Nat, sleepy but soundin' OK, trailin' Sam
behind her. He still looks pretty damn wary.

"Mornin'. Want breakfast?"

"Wait for mama?" Well, that's promisin'. But I can
tell he's doin' it in part to make up to me or Marie
or maybe both. That was number four  fix things with
Sam.

"Sure, we can wait if you wanna." I heard her movin'
she'll be out any minute. "And you know  I wanted
to tell ya that I'm sorry if I got a little upset last
night or if I sounded mad. I wasn't mad, just
frustrated. Mom knows you love her a lot, so nothin'
to worry 'bout, OK?" Big noddin' there. I think some
of that got through. Well, so far, so good with the
big plan.

"Hey there, guys. Did you sleep OK?" There's my
wife. Didn't have time to consult her on the plan,
but she'll catch on as soon as she sees the cake, I
bet.

"Yeah, mom  breakfast now?" Heh. Trust Nat to get
right to it.

"Sure. I'll, uh, get some  "

"I got it covered. You guys have a seat." Well, here
we go. Cake time. I'm either a brilliant dad or a
total idiot. "Thought we'd just have the birthday
cake, get the day started right off." Oh-oh. Sam
froze in his tracks and Marie's lookin' at me like
I've got a screw or several loose. "Might as well,
huh? Gotta have cake sometime on your birthday, why
not for breakfast?"

There - I think Marie's cluein' in. She's sittin'
down, anyhow. "Good idea. I don't think I've ever
had cake for breakfast. It'll be fun." Well, Marie's
vote seems to be in the 'brilliant parent' category.
Let's see how the kids vote. "Come on, let's sit
down."

Nat's goin'. Good. But what's she  oh, I get it
she's turnin' her chair to face the door, just in
case. Yep, that's my daughter, all right. Watches
her back. Sam's still frozen in place, though. "We
got cake for you too, Sam. Wanna join us?" I hope
that came out as a question, not a command. By the
way Marie's lookin' at me, it came out at least a
little OK.

"Dunno dada"

"OK. Well, if you feel like it, we've got a place set
for ya. We're gonna get started on breakfast here."
Two outta three ain't bad. Hey  wasn't there a song
like that or 

"Sit wif you dada?"

"Sure." I'll take it. If he's even willing to come
over and eat the cake at all, I'll take it. "Come on
over." There we go. All nice and safe in dad's lap.
Nothin' to worry 'bout, son. "You want some of mine
or do you want yours?" Come on, kid, just a little
bite, I know you can do it.

"Dada's." Good enough. Cake's cake, right?

"Here ya go." I don't ever think I've had a more
tension-filled breakfast. Bite. Chew. Swallow.
There. There ya go, son. Cake. You ate your
birthday cake and nothin' catastrophic happened. See?
"Want some more?" Little nod. With his sweet tooth,
he'll be eatin' my whole piece. But that's OK. He's
eatin' it. He's doin' it. That's my son, he's a
brave kid. And Nat's diggin' in too. Whew. That
worked out OK. I'm actually not an idiot. "Good
cake, huh?"

"Yeah!" Nat's still glancin' at the door but the
sugar rush is slowly killin' off her worries. I never
thought I'd be so thankful for their sweet tooth.

"Well, your mom made it special for ya. Glad you like
it."

"Fanks mom." Marie's smilin' and I can tell by her
scent that she just let go, just relaxed. It's gonna
be OK, darlin'. Sam's settlin' too. His little
body's meltin' inta my lap. Yeah, this was a good
idea. Definitely. Step number one, check. Now we
just gotta live through presents and it's a done deal.
And I swear to God, if Fate or Destiny or some other
fuckin' higher force is even thinkin' 'bout
interruptin' this day with some shit, I'll shove a
claw up it's metaphorical ass. You leave my family
alone, ya bastards.








Fate sure has a goddamn funny sense of humor. Oh
sure, no attacks, but this ain't turnin' out quite
like I planned, either.

"You remember how I said to put them first? Well,
this is one of those times." I hear that amusement in
your voice, darlin', and it ain't that I don't like
hearin' it normally, but  "Look at it this way  at
least they liked the presents."

"Yeah, darlin', but the truck was for Sam and the doll
was for Nat  they weren't supposedta trade presents."
There goes me playin' dump trucks with my son. I
can't even play 'em with my daughter  Nat decided the
dump truck made a good wagon for her paint supplies.
And Sam's decided that the doll's his new little
sister. Great.

"Oh, it doesn't mean anything that he likes the doll.
He's only two, even if he is developing a lot quicker
than a normal kid."

"It ain't that." Heh. She's got my eyebrow thing
down pretty good by now. "OK, maybe it's a little
that. It's just that  I wanted to play dump trucks
with him, you know, do manly bonding kinda stuff. He
he ain't got too much of me in there, darlin', and
sometimes I wish he did, I wish I understood him
better or somethin'. Nat, I can deal with, I can
understand  she gets pissed, not upset. She's a
fighter, not a brooder."

"Sam's a fighter too, when push comes to shove. He's
already got the scars to prove it. It's just not his
first option, his response of choice." Smart woman,
my wife. She always puts things in perspective. "And
I'd say that you understand him pretty well. You
pushed him just enough and supported him just enough
this morning and now, look  he's playing with toys on
his birthday instead of cowering in terror like he was
last night. Sam, he's a lot like me, I know, but,
Logan, you've always understood me pretty darn well."
Did I say smart? I meant brilliant. She does know
how to make everythin' make sense.

"Yeah, you're right. We got good kids."

"We do." There goes Sam, talkin' up a storm to the
doll and  hey  he's talkin' up a storm to it. He
never talks that much 'round us. Hmmm.

"Hey, Marie - you see that? See how he's chatterin'
away to the doll?"

"Yeah. He is." Damn, I am on a hot streak today. I
never usually catch on to them doin' somethin' new
before Marie. "Logan, I wonder  I know we don't
really know if he has powers or what, but  but if he
did, if he can sense people like we think, maybe
that's why he's talking more to the doll. Maybe he
needs to, because he can't feel anything from her.
Maybe that's why his speech and language is a little
behind Nat's. Maybe he doesn't need them, doesn't
rely on them to understand us."

"That makes a helluva lotta sense, darlin'."

"And on your birfday, we get cake. For bweakfoost.
But only on birfdays." Wouldya look at that, he's
explainin' the house rules to his new 'little sister.'
"Mama is warm and Dada is hot. Mama is soft and Dada
is stwong. Mama is quiet inside and Dada hums. Mama
scawed me once when she went away, but it's OK now."
Holy freakin' hell, that's the most complete sentences
I've ever heard outta the guy. And all that  I hum
and Marie's quiet inside - I bet he does have powers.
I bet he can feel us. We're gonna hafta get Jeannie
up here one day and do some tests or somethin'. And
Marie 'going away' when Sabretooth took her over for a
second - shit, no wonder he was scared shitless if he
lost whatever connection he has with her. He probably
depended on havin' that his whole little life, havin'
Marie's feelin's toward him be warm and lovin' and
then  bam, Sabretooth's in there. Holy shit. "Mama
and Dada love us. Dada pwomised the birfday would be
OK and it is." You know, I never thought I'd be so
damn thrilled that my son was playin' with dolls. Who
knew all that was in there?

"Oh, Logan." Marie's been eavesdroppin' on him too.
"I think we're right. I think we're right about his
powers."

"Yeah." But what does Nat have, then? Shouldn't hers
be comin' out too? Or don't it work that way? They
were fraternal twins  different eggs. "We should
find out what's up. We should call Jeannie."

Noddin'. "But not today, OK? Let's deal with it
tomorrow. Today, let's just enjoy their birthday."

"Yeah." We sure as hell earned it. Marie's right.
Let's just enjoy their second birthday. They've
earned it too.


 

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